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Karena Itu Pasti

Gadis itu masih diam memandang selempang cumlaude yang baru saja dia dapatkan tadi pagi. Hari ini merupakan hari wisudanya. Dia telah resmi menjadi seorang sarjana teknik dari salah satu universitas ternama. Tentu saja dia senang sekali sudah mencapai salah satu mimpinya. Namun, dia justru teringat pada peristiwa yang benar-benar masih membekas di memorinya dan sampai sekarang masih meninggalkan luka di hatinya.

Satu bulan yang lalu, tepat di hari pernikahan sepupunya, gadis itu dan mamanya mendatangi pesta pernikahan itu. Sudah lama tidak ada kumpul keluarga besar, sehingga apabila ada kesempatan seperti pernikahan kali ini, semua keluarga diharapkan hadir sekaligus untuk reuni keluarga besar. Dia yang berkuliah di luar kota menyempatkan hadir, meski berarti dia harus merelakan seminar internasional yang sangat ingin dia ikuti. “Ayo kapan lagi Ra, sekalian kumpul sama keluarga juga,” kata-kata mamanya di telpon akhirnya membuatnya memesan tiket pulang.

Pesta pernikahan sepupunya bisa dibilang merupakan pesta pernikahan yang sangat megah, berada di gedung yang mewah, dengan tamu undangan yang sangat banyak, serta hidangan makanan yang sangat enak dan jangan lupakan juga sepupunya yang sangat cantik seperti seorang putri raja yang sedang duduk di kursi mempelai wanita.

“Ma, rame banget ya yg datang ke sini. Banyak ucapannya lagi,”ucap Ra kepada mamanya setelah melihat kemegahan pernikahan ini.

“Iya, orang tua pasangan mbakmu itu orang penting. Makanya ini pesta pernikahannya gede banget. Tamu-tamu nya juga orang terkenal. Tapi tau ga apa yang mama pikirin?

“Apa Ma?”

“Ternyata manusia itu banyak banget ya!”

“Eh? Kirain apaan. Wajar manusia pasti banyaklah di dunia. Mama sih sukanya di rumah doang.”

“Bukan gitu Ra, tapi ini bikin mama jadi berpikir lebih dalam. Manusia di dunia ini emang banyak banget dan itu semuanya ciptaan Allah. Dan Allah ga pernah main-main kalo menciptakan manusia, tapi sayangnya manusia masih suka main-main, ga serius ngejalanin hidup di dunia ini. Padahal semua perilaku manusia itu dicatat dan Allah tau semuanya. Makanya kadang mama kepikiran kalo lagi ada acara rame-rame kayak gini, terus ada bencana, semuanya bisa langsung hilang dalam sekejap.”

“Ih, mama pikirannya serem banget. Ini lagi berbahagia jangan ngomongin gitu dong ma!”

“Lah, kenapa? Kan mama mikir doang Ra. Kamu inget ga siapa orang mukmin yang paling cerdas di dunia ini? Pernah mama bilang lho”

“Inget ma, orang yang paling banyak mengingat mati dan paling baik dalam mempersiapkan kematiannya, kan?”

“Bener! Makanya mama harap kamu bisa jadi orang cerdas yang selalu ingat mati dan mempersiapkannya, Ra. Kita emang gatau kapan kita mati, tapi yang kita tau mati itu pasti. Ga ada yang kekal di dunia ini. Jangan sampe kita lalai, kalopun berbahagia secukupnya aja, pun bersedih juga secukupnya aja. Kalo dapet rezeki ya disyukuri, kalo ada masalah harus bersabar dan yakin pasti ada jalan keluarnya. Yang pasti kita harus inget terus tujuan hidup kita apa. Apa coba tujuan hidup kita?”mama memang seperti ini, seringkali mengingatkan Ra dengan petuah-petuahnya.

“Adz-Dzariyat ayat 56, hayo apa ma?”

“Lho malah nanya balik ke mama, inget ga arti ayatnya apa?”

“Haha iya inget kok ma. Dan aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan supaya mereka beribadah kepadaKu, kan? Ra tau mama ngomong gini kode banget deh, nyuruh sholat ya?”

“Nah tuh pinter, yaudah yok kita solat Zuhur dulu, nanti kalo udah, kita ke sini lagi kumpul sama yang lain”

Azan Zuhur memang baru berkumandang beberap menit yang lalu. Ra dan mamanya menuju mushola yang terletak di sebelah gedung pernikahan. Mengambil wudhu dan sholat zuhur, ikut menjadi makmum dari jamaah yang sedang sholat. Bila dibandingkan dengan jumlah tamu undangan yang hadir, maka yang terlihat sholat di mushola hanya sedikit. Ya tapi mungkin memang beberapa ada yang sholat di rumah mengingat waktu Zuhur masih panjang.

“Enak kan kalo udah sholat. Rasanya tenang,”ucap mama kepada Ra yang sedang memakai sepatu.

Ra tersenyum dan mengangguk setuju. Seusai sholat keduanya kembali ke gedung utama. Beberapa tamu undangan masih membuat antrian untuk bersalaman dan mengucapkan selamat kepada pengantin dan orang tuanya, beberapa ada yang mengantri di tempat hidangan makanan, serta beberapa yang lain duduk menyantap makanan yang telah diambil. Ra dan mamanya menuju ke bagian VIP, ke salah satu meja bundar tempat keluarga lainnya berkumpul. Mamanya mulai mengobrol dengan tante dan pamannya. Sementara Ra ikut duduk, menjawab satu-dua hal bila dirinya ditanya dan lebih tertarik bermain dengan handphonenya.

Tiba-tiba terasa guncangan hebat dan terdengar suara berdebam keras dari sisi kiri ruangan. Semua orang panik, orang-orang di antrian segera kocar-kacir berlarian. Tidak butuh 5 detik untuk Ra menyadari bahwa sedang terjadi gempa. Lampu gantung di ruangan berayun kencang, beberapa bahkan jatuh membuat kerusuhan semakin menjadi-jadi. Tiang besar penyangga gedung yang terlihat kokoh mulai retak dan hancur terbelah. Keadaan semakin tak karuan. Ra sangat panik, mencoba mencari mamanya yang tadi sedang mengantri mengambil makanan. Orang-orang berlarian di sekitarnya. Dalam kepanikannya, dia masih bisa berpikir cepat untuk segera berlindung di bawah meja bundar terdekat.

“La ilaha illallah, Muhammadur Rasulullah”

Masih berlindung di bawah meja, Ra berusaha mengucap syahadat dan istighfar. Duh, apa yang tadi mamanya bilang. Kita memang tidak tau kapan kematian menjemput, tapi yang kita tau mati itu pasti. Ra sangat takut. Apakah sekarang waktunya? Guncangan dahsyat masih terus terasa, hingga ujung matanya menangkap sosok mamanya yang sedang berlari menuntun anak kecil menuju ke orang tua si anak. PRANG. Lampu gantung besar di tengah ruangan jatuh menimpa tubuh mamanya. Seketika pembicaraan Ra dengan mamanya tadi terus mengulang di kepalanya. Tentang kematian yang pasti. Tentang kapan saja Allah bisa mengambil nyawa makhluknya. Tentang bencana yang bisa datang kapan saja dan menghilangkan semuanya dalam sekejap.

Ra berlari menuju mamanya. Berteriak histeris, tapi tak ada jawaban dari mamanya. Anak kecil yang dituntun mamanya tadi juga terkulai di samping tubuh mamanya. Dia tak peduli tentang gempa susulan atau apapun itu. Yang dia tau sekarang tubuh mamanya tergeletak di depannya, tanpa suara. Ya Allah, apakah sekarang waktunya? Ra mulai menguasai diri, teriakannya berkurang, namun dia tak bisa membendung air matanya yang terus mengalir. Ya Allah, apakah memang sekarang waktunya? Dan hari itu resmi dia menjadi seorang yatim piatu.

Satu bulan bukan waktu yang cukup untuk melupakan segala trauma yang dia alami. Meski begitu dia selalu ingat petuah terakhir mamanya. Tentang jangan lalai, jangan melupakan tujuan hidup, tentang berbahagia dan bersedih secukupnya. Meski susah dia berusaha melanjutkan hidupnya, menerima segala takdir Allah. Rasanya ingin sekali dia marah, tapi tak ada gunanya.

Pun saat wisuda hari ini, di mana orang-orang ramai berkumpul dengan perasaan berbahagia, dia justru teringat kematian. Berbicara dengan temannya bagaimana bila sekarang terjadi bencana. Membuat temannya bergidik ngeri. Jangan ngomong gitulah. Memberikan respon yang sama saat mamanya juga berbicara tentang kematian di hari yang seharusnya menjadi hari berbahagia.

Di malam hari wisudanya itu, dia memandang selempang cumlaudenya, beralih ke toga di meja kamarnya lalu beralih lagi memandang ke pigura foto, yang berisi foto dia dan mamanya saat memasuki gedung pernikahan sepupunya. Di foto itu tampak dia dan mamanya tersenyum bahagia, ikut merayakan kebahagiaan hari pernikahan sepupunya, tanpa tau bahwa beberapa menit ke depan, semua kebahagiaan berubah menjadi kesedihan. Tanpa tau ajal mamanya semakin dekat.

“Ma, hari ini Ra lulus.”

Diambilnya pigura foto kecil itu.

“Tapi rasanya hampa, Ma. Ra pengen mama di sini, bangga melihat Ra dengan baju wisuda dan toga.”Air matanya mulai menetes setelah tadi pagi dia berusaha mati-matian menahannya.

“Maafin Ra yang kadang masih belum bisa mengikhlaskan kepergian Mama. Tapi Ra janji, Ra akan selalu mendoakan mama. Terimakasih atas petuah-petuah mama. Terimakasih untuk selalu mengingatkan Ra akan kematian yang pasti. Semoga nanti kita bisa ketemu lagi di surgaNya ya Ma.”

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Writing Challenge: Just a Reason

(this post is part of this writing challenge)

I consider myself as a challenger, although I’m also thinker. Both of this trait seems to contradict each other. A challenger tends to do what they want and attempt themselves to test their ability and prove or justify something even if it’s new for them. While a thinker will take time to think before doing something. So let just say that I’m a think-challenger. It sounds kinda weird.

When I find something new, I will take interest to it and I will try to do something about it. I have found information about writing challenge since a long ago and I’m always interested in joining. I found myself unsure whether I should take this writing challenge or not since consistency is difficult. But, I need some force to make me consistently write in this blog.

I usually start to do something if I really have a reason to do it. That’s why I think I need to find a reason to keep me writing productively here. By doing this writing challenge, I hope I can write consistently. Moreover, I also need to improve my English skill so I will write using English for all topics in this writing challenge. Wish me luck!

p.s pardon my bad grammar

#writingchallenge

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Writing Challenge

Found some interesting topic, so I decide to write about these topics:

1. Why do you blog
2. Why am I doing this challenge?
3. How have you changed in the past 2 years?
4. Talk about your siblings
5. Your favourite childhood toys
6. How you hope your future will be like
7. A picture of something you want to do before die
8. The meaning behind your blog name
9. Dream travel destination
10. If the world were to end tomorrow, what would you do with your remaining time on earth
11. What is your dream job and why
12. A collection you have
13. Talk about your siblings
14. Write something that someone tolf you about yourself that you never forget
15. Write about someone who inspires you
16. Share something you struggle with
17. Post some words of wisdom that speak to you
18. Write about five blessings in your life
19. Think of any word. Search it on google images. Write something inspired by the 11th image
20. Write about an area in your life that you’d like to improve
21. Tell us your three favourite colors
22. Your favourite season, and why
23. Travel back in time to an event that has significance to your life right now
24. Share one moment from the day
25. Tell story from your childhood
26. The best part about being you
27. Personality Test Result
28. An random person you meet today
29. My college experience so far
30. Food you don’t like

Nah, biasanya kan kalo writing challenge ini ada deadline gitu. Sebenernya ini fleksibel sih, kalo aku sendiri kayaknya berusaha menuhin one week one post aja tentang salah satu topik di atas. Semoga bisa istiqomah. Yang mau request topik tertentu juga boleh (emang ada san -_-“), yang mau ikutan wiriting challenge ini juga boleh hehe. Happy writing! 🙂

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Why did I write?

I started to write blog since I was 14. I forgot why I was interested in blogging. Probably because I started to learn about internet and there was a task to make a blog in my junior high school (If I’m not mistaken) so I had to make a blog. Or maybe I was inspired from my brother. Yeah, I admit that my brother inspires me in many things though I don’t know what are the things that I did simply because I was inspired by him.

Then, I started to make a journal about myself. (I wouldn’t say it was a diary, because diary sound childish, but I know that diary and journal are kinda same hehe). Journal sounds more mature, right? When I was a 10th grader, my English teacher asked the students to write a diary everyday using English. It was a way to improve our English skills. Sometimes, I only wrote about 2 or 3 sentences and sometimes If I was in the mood to write or If I had something interesting to tell, I could write 1 page full. That’s what inspired me to write about my own journal, not because it was a task, but purely because I wanted it.

Now, looking back to some year ago. I look at my old blog (I didn’t use this blog when I started writing blog) and my journal. It brought memory back for me. How bad I was at writing (although I know maybe until now, it’s still bad, but at least it has improved because I can say that my old writing is so childish). Writing makes me remember things. I remember when I write this post or that post. I remember when I was being scolded by a teacher because I was late. and so on.

Yes, writing brings back memory. It’s like you have a power of time machine. To go back to where you have been before. To open your memory in your brain. I know that I write for myself. So, if people out there mock at my writing, I just let them be, cause it doesn’t effect me at all. And if people out there are inspired by my writing, then I will be happy 🙂 At least I can give benefits to other. Let’s write! Inspire and be inspired! 🙂

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Are you Fed Up?

Yes, I am! Well, the title of this post is actually the last part of the video that I watch “Are you Fed Up?”

So, that’s the video. I don’t know whether I should write this in English or Bahasa Indonesia, but because the video is in English and I think it’s easier to quote some words directly from the video so let me use English. Other reason is to improve my English skills. (Maybe this is only my excuse to feel less guilty because I watch this video and write about the content in this video instead of doing my university tasks). I also want to carve some memorization, knowledge, and new facts that I got from watching this video. Because I don’t think, I can rewatch that video again because the duration is quite long (it’s about 1 hour and half) and I need some other importants to do~ Last, sorry for bad grammars.

Let me write some brief explanation about what is the content of video and how I found it. When I was surfing in my facebook page, I read a sentence “A Cancer Story and the food that’s killing you” then I was interested and click the link provided. So, I arrived in youtube page about the trailer of Fed up, then after the trailer, the fed up automatically start to play. Then, I watch the video until finish. Here’s some information that I got from the video :

  1. “Eat less, exercise more” is wrong campaign
    • Back to 1953, when exercise is considered taboo for people and exercise contribute to heart attack and diminish sex drive. Then Dr. Jean Mayer did experiment on rat and he found that the rat that didn’t exercise will get fat. So the conclusion is lack of exercise will contribute to weighting.
    • Because of that research, exercise and fitness industry start to increase. But, the fact is although people who exercise is increasing so does the rate of obesity people. There are also increasing in the number of obesity or overweight.
  2. “Calorie in equal calorie out” is also wrong!
    • We usually heard the campaign that in order not to get fat, the amount of calorie intake must be the same with the amount of calorie out. So, we should make calorie in and calorie out balance in our body.
    • It turn out wrong! Let me write example of case from the video. When someone eat 160 calorie of almond, the fiber in almond make our body absorb almond for long time as well as it makes low blood sugar level in our body. Oppositely, when someone drink 160 calorie of coke, our body will soon absorb it quickly and make blood sugar rise. So our body will soon process this excess sugar become fat. So, 160 calorie in almond or 160 calorie in soda? You can tell me which is better.
    • “Even if there is tools to count how much calories in and how much calories out, nobody can do it.”
      • 20 ons coke = 1 hour 20 minutes ride a bycycle
      • 1 cookies = 20 minutes jogging
      • 1 medium french fries = 1 hour 12 minutes swimming.
      • Does anybody got time for that?
  3. No percentage of sugar found in food nutrition label
    • “Food nutrition label list government recommended daily amount of various nutrient. Today when you look on any food label, you will not find sugar listed with the percentage of daily recommendation”
    • Soon after I watch part about this information, I search for food nutrition label in my snack package and yes, that’s right! Only sugar part don’t have percentage of daily recommendation
    • In the video, as I remember around last part, if the percentage of daily recommendation of sugar is listed, it will make us shocked.
  4. Food industry trap you
    • In order to make their product still saleable, most of food industry (especially industry for processed food) play with the words like : low fat, low calorie, fat free, reduced fat, low sugar, zero sugar. It’s only their trick to take me and you to choose their product and make us think that we already choose better and healthier food because, yeah, it’s low fat!
    • Actually it’s a trap! When it says low fat, the contain of sugar in that food is still the same. Yes, I’m fed up! Cause I’m trapped. Suddenly, I just think about low sugar drink, how low actually is it?
  5. Food addiction is real!
    • The fact is the addiction of sugar is more potent than the addiction of cocaine for our brain. That’s why in order to make people addict, food industry start to introduce sugar to young people even to baby.
    • Food addiction is like drugs addiction, when you have drugs around you, you just want to take it. It’s the same like when you  have foods in your home, you just want to take and eat it.
  6. Daily allowance sugar
    • American Heart Association (AHA) made daily allowance of added sugar per day is 6-9 teaspoon (1 teaspoon = 4 gram). While that actual daily sugar intact is 41 teaspoon for average of people.

Okay, that’s all. let me close with the sentences from one of the people in video “The most important thing you can do and it’s challenging for many people is cook real food” Bye, gotta learn how to cook~

 

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Be Active!

I guess the title already tell the point of this post. But, I just wanna tell you my opinion about why is being active so important. Lately, I had many things to do and I hadn’t written my to do list yet because I thought I spent too much time thinking and worrying without doing.

Time is ticking and it won’t stop and wait you ’til you finish worrying. That’s why I started to move although I was still in the state of confusion, I started to search for information, read some articles related to things I had to do, ask some people about their opinion, ask their help, and many other things to do that required me to not only sit and wait for miracle but also move actively both my mind and my body.

Sometimes, I wait for people to contact me, to help me, to invite me, to take care of my stuffs, and when they were not there I was sad, I was feeling ignored and forgotten, I was thinking that they didn’t care about me. (WelI, I think this is one of the weaknesses for being a feeling type person). I’m also the kind of people who tend to follow, I rarely become an initiator and stand in the front row.

Lately, God sent me to the situation that required me to be an active person. That I had to make movement first, I couldn’t be the type of person who wait, I couldn’t wait for other to tell me any informations, I couldn’t wait for other to invite me and if they didn’t invite me I would feel sad. No, I couldn’t be this type of person anymore.

God sent me this challenge so I could learn to be active person. It was hard at first but didn’t God promise that verily, after hardship comes ease and I believe that God never breaks His promises. So, if you want to search information, be active. You are not a child anymore. I also want to tell people out there who tend to wait and lazy to act, just be active and fight the challenge. Then you will realize that there is always ease in many forms, maybe you will get help from other, maybe the process of your things will go smooth  and you will realize that your worry is only in your imagination.

Nothing is wrong from being active. So, dear my fellow friends who still wait for miracle to happen, let’s be active and invite those miracles to your life.

-Jatinangor, January 2nd 2016

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Mind Power

My eyes caught an object, a white thick book on the white table and when I came nearer I knew that it was the book that always attracted me everytime I came to a bookstore. Whenever I saw that book in a bookstore, I held it and I really wanted to buy it but I think too much. Yes, I spent much time just to think before buying something. As the result, I left that book in a bookstore and didn’t bought it.

Found that book in my cousins’ home brought me back to the memories where I held that book in the bookstore. But, this time I could read it leisurely without being caught or being ashamed because I stayed too long in the bookstore trying to read the book. Am I pathetic? Nope, I just tried to be realistic because I still didn’t make my own money yet and there were many other things that I should spent my money on. By the way, do you want to know what book was it?

An Indonesian version from Dr. Ibrahim Elfiky’s book titled Terapi Berpikir Positif. I just started to read it the second day I stayed in my cousins’ home. It’s already night about 8 p.m when I arrived at my cousins’ home. After taking a bath, I grabbed that book and started to read it from the first page.

At first chapter, the book told about how our mind can be related with many things. Our mind related with our soul, body, physic, feelings, attitude and many others. There were descriptions and example of real cases in the book so it was well explained for the reader. When we thought about something it would become our mind, then it made us focus and concentrated with it. Our concentration then would become feelings. Then, from the feelings, it would  become attitude. From our attitude, it would give us the result. Briefly, our mind –> concentration –> feelings –> attitude –> result. Our mind could decide what the result will be. Our mind could control many other things.

At about 10 p.m (I just estimate this), I felt sleepy and I placed my book on the bed side, placing my handphone in the middle of the book, making it as the bookmark and I started to fall into a deep sleep. Yea, reading a book on the bed will always make me want to sleep. Then, I woke up and I started searching my handphone to see what time it was and it still 2.30 a.m. On that silent night, I decided to continue reading that book, turned the light on and without I realize, time passed by, the cock started crowing and it means morning has arrived. I stopped at the end of sub-chapter on pages 128.

After doing my morning activites, I continued to read that book. Unfortunately, I had to left my cousins’ home this morning about 8 a.m, so I needed to finish reading that book. I thought I couldn’t read all entire pages and finished that book. So, I just jumped into the last chapter. The chapter titled “Sepuluh Wasiat Berpikir Positif” I will share it based on what written on the book. Because the book is in bahasa Indonesia so I’ll just write it on bahasa Indonesia ^^v

Sepuluh Wasiat berpikir Positif

  1. Keinginan yang menggebu
  2. Keputusan yang Kuat
  3. Bertanggung Jawab Penuh
  4. Persepsi yang disadari
  5. Menentukan Tujuan
  6. Waktu yang Positif
  7. Penegasan yang bisa dipertanggungjawabkan
  8. Pengembangan diri
  9. Ketenangan dan renungan harian
  10. Perhatian individual dan kegiatan harian

There were explanation for each strategies, accompanied with example from real situation. I remember the example from strategies bertanggung jawab penuh. The book told the story about a girl who really want to be a swimmer. Unfortunately, in her childhood she had an accident and lost her foot. But, she didn’t give up. She still wanted to achieve her dream. She still wanted to be a swimmer. Then, her mother brought her to a teacher and ask the teacher to taught her how to swim. The teacher asked the girl that if she really want to be a swimmer she has to be responsible with her choice. She had to give her time everyday to train, she had to be discipline, and the girl took that responsible for sure. She trained every day and tried hard to be a swimmer. Then, she got a chance to follow some competition. After becoming a winner of competition, she didn’t stop her dream. She had another big dream. She wanted to swim from one island to another island through the sea (sorry, I forgot what sea it is). Everyone around her didn’t believe that she could do it, but she was stubborn. She really wanted to fulfil her dream, and she believed that she could achieve it, so she didn’t care with people’s opinion that oppose her dream. Despite all other people thinking, finally she succeed to achieve her dream. She could swim through the sea. After achieving this dream, people started to talk about her, people praised them, and they gave big appreciation to her.

Well, that’s just an example from the book (forgive me if it’s not really same with the book or maybe I improvise the story a bit). There are many other examples that reader could get from the book. I haven’t finished read that book yet. InsyaAllah someday I will, if I have a chance, whether by buying it by myself, borrowing from library or anyone (tell me if you have this, because I will be pleased to borrow it from you) or you could give me the book, I’ll receive it happily :p